My dearest Eliza,
As I write these words, the weight of my actions rests heavily upon my heart. The pain I've caused you lingers in the space between us—a divide of my own creation. Today, I reach across that distance with this letter, not to erase what was done, but to acknowledge it fully and offer my most profound and sincere apology.
What happened last Thursday evening at the Richardson's gathering was inexcusable. My careless words about your career aspirations, spoken thoughtlessly in a moment of insecurity, betrayed the trust and respect that form the foundation of our relationship. I saw the hurt in your eyes immediately—a reflection of my failure to honor the person I cherish most.
In the days since, I've reflected deeply on what led me to that moment. It wasn't, as I initially claimed, the stress of work or the influence of too many drinks. The truth is more difficult to admit: I felt threatened by your recent success and the growing recognition of your talents. Instead of celebrating your achievements as I should have—as your partner and greatest advocate—I allowed my own insecurities to manifest as criticism. This revelation brings me no relief, only clarity about what I must change within myself.
I want you to know that I've begun speaking with Dr. Matthews about these insecurities. This isn't a temporary gesture to win back your favor, but a genuine commitment to understanding why I would hurt someone I love so deeply. I refuse to let my unresolved issues continue to wound you.
I recognize that apologies without change are merely words. While I cannot undo what was said, I can and will demonstrate through consistent action that I am devoted to being worthy of your trust again. I understand this will take time, and that forgiveness, if it comes, must unfold according to your heart's timeline, not my desire for absolution.
What I'm asking for is not a dismissal of my actions, but an opportunity to rebuild what was damaged—to create something even stronger through deeper understanding and unwavering respect. Your brilliance, determination, and vision are qualities I have always admired. They are integral to who you are, and I am truly sorry for ever making you feel otherwise, even for a moment.
Whether you choose to discuss this letter with me or need more time and space, please know that my remorse is genuine, my commitment to growth is resolute, and my love for you remains undiminished—even if I have given you reason to question it.
With profound regret and enduring love,
Alexander